okayy, UPDATES!

hmmph, COALs was okayy laa. even though i felt like not that happy at some time, i still enjoyed it as a whole. i think COALs had made me realise a lot of things. different people have different personalities. to work in a team, we must cast aside our differences. anw, when it was about to be break camp, i felt a little tinge of sadness in my heart. cliche. hee:D seriously. after being together for three days, what do you expect right? anw, another thing had been weighing me down. actually a lot but the most impt one; by, i dont know what happened to you. you have not been contacting me for TWO weeks already. isn't that a little bit too cruel? ditch me after you've had your fun? baby, i am sorry if i may not be those wild outgoing kind of girlfee. but that's me. i am not like some bitch, fooling around with other guys when they already have a boyfee. maybe because we are from totally different background, that's why. if you want a clean break, just say so. don't keep me waiting like some fool. imagine me going around telling ppl i am your gf, while you go around telling people you are not my bf. that is totally ARGHH! right? exactly. another thing, i am sorry; you always make me feel good, happy and just everything nice but loved. through your actions. somehow, i feel you're avoiding me. yes, you are. very very obvious right? but anw, i still rmb how nice the hug was. maybe you wont remember. but that was the first time i ever let a guy hug me. don't make me hate you. i dont want to. and dont make me hate all the guys around me just because of your foolish actions. god, how i hate you sometimes. you left me stranded, all alone. making me feel like i'm a parcel you throw into the rubbish bin after you've gotten what you want.